Dear Blog,

Dear Blog,

We haven't spoken in awhile. I should try to visit you more often; please accept my deepest apologies. Let's proceed. Several events have taken place since my last post, but I wish not to cover these at this point in time. I like sharing with you my thoughts. Why, you ask? Well, I find that my thoughts swirl in and out of my brain. Sometimes things stick. Othertimes, I forget. And I don't want to forget what I'm thinking right now. It's important.

I wonder if you're feeling suspense. I told you I had something important to share. You wonder: What could it be? What is she thinking? Is she playing a joke? Tell me, tell me, tell me. Well, Mr. Blog, hold your horses. I will continue...

Now, what fills my mind at this point in time is: Life. Life is such a fragile thing, resembling a small baby. If you don't feed the baby, it cries. If you don't change the baby, it cries. If the baby is tired, it cries. And really, nobody wants the baby to cry. We live so our baby can smile. We live so we can smile. We are the baby.

You think I'm crazy? I don't care. I know I'm weird. Crazy may even be accurate. But I'm so much more than a looney teenager who constantly ponders the meaning of life. My name is Lauren, and this is my story:

Throughout my years, I've tried to figure out the person I want to be. But more importantly, I've defined who I am today. I have so many flaws. I'm insecure, emotional, impatient, needy, worriesome, and messy. I know these things. I accept them. And I smile when they cross my mind. They've made me... me. And despite these things, I have many good qualities. I have passion and heart. And that's all I want. I want to give life my everything. I want to try new things, and learn from my mistakes. I want every day to be different. My heart is my compass; let it lead me in any direction.

I should be off, Mr. Blog. Keep in touch.

Farewell,
Lauren Elizabeth

Fancy Meeting You Here

Why hello. Fancy meeting you here. :) I just wanted to drop by again, to share my current thoughts. This should be short and sweet. Today, I'm in a good mood. I have been for the past couple days...overall. You know, after I wrote that poem, I felt a lot better about myself. Maybe poems are my outlet for stress. I also like to doodle. I don't know if anyone knows this... but I doodle all throughout SSR. I probably should read, but doodling... it's the bomb dig. I think I'm gonna make a journal. But instead of writing in it, I'll doodle. And occasionally add a poem. Anyway, HUGE tangent, ha...I guess this whole blog could be considered a tangent of my life. Anyway, I think I'm really growing up. 2009 has proved an interesting year. I've realized that I'm not gonna let others bring me down. I'm who I want to be, and life is too short to be anything but happy. I'm gonna find the simple things that make me smile, and just let them brighten my life. I've decided to kick this whole negative attitude in the rear, back into it's dusty, dark corner. Hmm.. Yes, I feel good. :) Anyway, I also wanted to take a moment to tell my "buds" (mwahah double meaning) that I really appreciate everything they do for me. I know I say this a lot, but really, I mean it.

Adios Muchacho,
Laurizzle

From My Heart

I was looking at the blog of a dear friend, an amazing writer. She inspired me to write a poem of my own.

Here I am.
This is me.
I'll never be more.
I'll never be less.
I'll try my hardest.
But I will fall.
I always fall.
And I always get up.
I promise to get up.
If I don't, I'm weak.
You think I'm weak.
But I'm not.
I've been through a lot.
I've kept so many secrets.
I've shown my strength.
You just can't see it.
Few have seen it.
I'm different than you.
I'm one with myself.
I'm alone.
Aren't we all alone?
You have troubles too.
I see them.
I hear them.
I feel them.
And I worry for you.
Because without you, I'm nothing.
But me.
And that's everything.
But not enough.
I need to be loved.
I know I'm loved.
I love you too.
I'll always be there for you.
I don't give you enough credit.
I'll miss you when you're gone.
Everything ends.
But it must first begin.
Let's start over.
Hold my hand.
Let's begin.
Together.

It turned out longer than I had intended, but I basically got out everything I wanted to. I know it doesn't have lots of literary elements.. no similies or anything, but this is a poem from my heart. I hope it doesn't offend anyone. It's really meant for multiple people: family, friends, crushes, enemies, even strangers. Lately, I've been thinking really negatively; this poem is a good portrayal. But I hold onto something. It's just a little thing called hope. On cloudy days, I look for the sun.

Sincerely,
Lauren

I Make No Sense

Hello fellow bloggers, my buds. I just wanted to check in with you; I haven't written in awhile. Life has been somewhat interesting lately. There seems to be a lot of stuff to worry about, lots of petty drama. It's kinda bringing me down.

Ohh... friends, family, boys, colleges, school, homework, work, activities... It's too much.

I'm sick of the system. I don't understand why people believe that there's only one path to follow...there's only one way to get where you wanna be. It isn't true. We can do so many different things with our lives. It's all about stepping outside of the box. Taking a risk.

Jeeze, I sound like a pessimist. I guess I need to realize that life is about learning, growing as an individual. Each experience makes a difference. Everything and anything can change your outlook on a particular subject. You just have to go with the flow, roll with the punches. What else is there to do?

Now, I feel like I'm contridicting myself. Please ignore my babble. Maybe it's better to just avoid such topics as the meaning of life. I make no sense.

Adios Muchacho,
Lauren Elizabeth

The Real Joey Parker

Hi friends! This weekend has been interesting. On Friday, I went to Mary and Sam's party... which was pretty fun! We just talked and danced and chilled. You know how I do. Then, I went to Jori's to work on Alyssa's To Kill a Mockingbird movie. That was fun too! Ha, last night, we all met at Jori's again to watch movies. Mary Kate wasn't there, and she was greatly missed. But she had her reasons... ;) Anyway, we watched Snow White and Another Cinderella Story. lol We had a debate about whether Drew Seeley has the certain spark to play the role of Joey Parker. Let's just day he DOESN'T! mwahah. Wanna know someone who does? This guy right here:

David Archuleta is such a stud. Foshizzz. Haha, anyway. Tonight I have mock trial. I hope everyone shows up. Gosh, I'm starving. Feeeeeed me. I'm gonna go make some food. Just remember...

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us. -Ralph Waldo Emerson

Adios Mucacho,
Lauren Elizabeth

Everyday Counts

Hey friends. It's almost one in the morning and I still have a test to study for and speech to memorize. Does my agony ever end? I hate homework but not really. You know? Today, I made a peach cobbler for Levora's class. I hope it tastes okay tomorrow.

You know, I was thinking about my last blog post... the welcoming post. It didn't really describe me. At all. I don't think I'm the type of person who you can put into words. Life is so complex; there's so much to learn about every person. I could never sum myself up into a mere few sentences. I don't think anyone can.

Today, I told my sister that I have a motto. She probably wasn't listening, but regardless, here it is: Let's do this while we still can. It's probably not a very good motto. It's motivational to get me moving, but it kind of has a negative vibe. What do you think? I suppose I should be on the prowl for a new one.

Today wasn't the best day ever, but it's a day. And that's what counts. Everyday counts.

Adios Muchacho,
Lauren

Welcome, welcome, welcome...

Hello there friends, and welcome to my blog! I suppose I should begin by introducing myself. My name is Lauren, and I'm fifteen years old. I have a great group of friends who encouraged me to begin this blogging experience. Let's see where it takes us!

Adios Muchacho,
Laurizzle